i'm not a perfect lover. i say what's on my mind. i start fights. i get jealous and sometimes i don't want to understand things to avoid pain. i'm demanding. i'm childish. i'm moody. but there are three things that i love about me. i'm faithful, sweet, and when i choose him, it is only him.

asdfghjkl blablabla yayayaya im so fckin BADMOOD. badmood bgt. super klimaxxx badmoodnya. gue jg sebenernya gatau sih gara2 apa. emmh... mungkin karna many problems commere to me ha ha ha it's so damn as hell! inituh yaaa....random. otak gue random. MIXED ALL woi aaaaaaaaaa x_x oke jadi gini, hm there's 4 girls who very annoying. they're so annoying. hmm maybe they're want to be a barbie HAHAHAHAHHH guys pleaseeee barbie is a plastic doll with no BRAIN! i know barbie is cute & pretty but y'all must know that fake. y'all guys wanna be a barbie, ryt? oh-my-god....WHAT A CRAP U R GUYS?!??! 

Happy Birthday, Bul!♥

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday happy birthday, happy birthday....my Bul!

YEAAA akhirnya berhasil bikin surprise kecil2an yang ancur sih sebenernya hahaha i'll call this surprise as 'fail' surprise lol. btw awalnya sempet bingung sih mau ngasih apa sama dia. tapi setelah dipikir2, mending gue ngasih cake &&& y'all guys must know that....sebenernya uang gue jg gak cukup sih kalo beli kado he he he sorry hun :p

fail surprise gak lengkap & gak seru kalo gak dibantu sama ayu aldo anggita alvin edo jasmine hilman hihi thanks guys for support this surprise ayeaaay!!!!

jadi awalnya gini....

gue bohongin dia gtdeh hehe. gue nyuruh dia ke rumah gue abis pulang sekolah. trstrs dia gamau gitu yekan cause theres ma daddy in home. he's so super duper nervous if he meet ma dad hahahaha rotfl :p *ok back to story*, after that setiap ketemu gue pasti dia bilang "aku gak mau ah ke rumah kamu. di rumah aku aja kek. plis..." yea sebenernya itu cuma tipuan gue ajasih.... abisnya dia lucu kalo gue ngomong about ma dad pasti mukanya langsung gugup gitu h3h3h3. 

NAH! abis pulang sekolah gue ngajak dia ke kantin. alasannya sih gue bilang kl gue laper padahal sih biasa2 aja wk. tbtb pas di jalan arah kantin, gue bilang "yu minjem hp dong. mau tlp bunda" EAAAAA dia langsung panik gitu mukanya sambil bilang "km ngapainsih tlp bunda" hahahaha. gue bilang aja kl gue tlp karna bunda mau nganterin baju buat ke rmh nenek. then, dia percaya sama omongan GUWEEEEH. pas bgt gue baru mesen makanan, bunda tlp buat ngambil cakenya. gue sama ayu pura2 ke toilet & alasannya mau nganter gue pipis (jebakan ke2) ha-ha-ha :p anak2 yg ada di kantin udh pada tau rencana gue, so mereka ikut bantuin gue buat bikin surpise ini. awalnya gue udh ngerencanain ini dr sehari sblm dia ultah. akhirnya pas gue ngambil kue yg alasannya mau ke toilet HAAAAAHAHAAA mereka yg ada di kantin nutup mata dia. and and and.............TADAAAAAA!!!! gue dtg bawa cake itu sambil nyanyiin happy birthday sama anak2 yg lain. uwwwh sebenernya i can't hold my tears to fall, but gue hrs tetap nahan wkwk gilak loeeeh malu gue kl tbtb nangis gitu. then, kita ceplokin dia deh ayeaaah. THIS IS DA BEST DAY EVAAAAHH. i love you all. lotta love for u guys.

btwwww, maaf ya syg aku cuma bisa ngasih itu doang. aku gabisa ngasih apa2 lg. maaf jg aku cakenya cuma segitu & aku gabisa ngasih kado apa2. maaf yaaa. maaf bgt. :"""(

oiya!!!! hmm wishesnya.......

- semoga perutnya tambah embul mumumu :3

- sehat - sehat

- panjang umur

- lulus UN

- shalatnya tambah rajin ya sygggg

- nurut sama ur parents

- makin syg aku hihi

ONE MORE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUUUULKU! I♥U, xx.

#30ThingsILoveAboutYou

1. how you always make me smile.
2. the way you can always make me laugh.
3. the sound of your sweet voice.
4. I love the way you hold my hand.
5. how silly we can be together.
6. how you can always be there for me.
7. how I can tell you anything.
8. how we can talk and chat for hours.
9. your silly jokes.
10. when you share your arms only with me.
11. how you can always make me feel comfortable.
12. your sweetness.
13. your eyes when you're staring at me.
14. the way you cheer me up whenever I'm down.
15. the way that you always care for me.
16. your cuteness.
17. you can always make me feel happy.
18. the way you can always understand me.
19. your smell.
20. your good morning and good night texts.
21. the way that you can always make time and be there for me whether in sadness or happiness.
22. the way you accept and love me for who I am.
23. the fact that you're mine.
24. the way you can always treat me special like a princess.
25. the way you can always make my mood back.
26. you never fail to make me smile and laugh.
27. our crazy conversation.
28. our fight time.
29. our sweet conversation.
30. is not enough, I love everything about you....

Love....Love....

I just wish that you could be mine forever.
I know that you're not even mine right now.
But I just can't let you go.
I just can't forget you as easy as turning my hands.
It's not easy. It's fucking hard
&&&.... I don't think that i can.


I love you.
I don't know why.
I just love you.
I never love anybody (other than parents and God) this much before.
I don't know why.
You're different.


I know you ever hurt me, idk you feel it or not, but you did.
I know I can't be with you.
But I always pray to God that you could be mine.


Everytime I miss you...
I love your smile.
I love your laugh.
I love your smell.
I love how you act when you're with me.
I love every little thing about you.


I don't want this to be more complicated.
I don't want you to lose the one that you love because of me.
I know you told me you love me.
And I have to do this because I love you. I really really do.
Like more than anybody could imagine.
Like more than anyone else in this world.

BEST.

cuma mau ngasih tau ke lo semua kalo hari ini akhirnya gue ketemu PUTI!!!! aaaa gatau mau ngomong apa lagi, yg jelas gue seneng banget. seneng klimaxxxxx. lega selega leganya udah cerita sama puti, ketawa2 bareng, flashback, & yg pasti......foto-foto muehehe. luph luph, put!♥

-sekian :p-

Puti Mahardiani♥

yak! y'all must know the girl who i called bestie never end. her name is PUTI. but i often called her MBA PUPUY :p gue sahabatan sama puti berawal dari sd. itu jg gak dari kls 1. kita mulai deket dari kls 5 gitu. sebenernya sih udh saling kenal dari kls 3an gitu tapi blm deket karna kita beda kls. naaaahh pas kls 6.......di kelas itulah all beauty & crazy memories of us. kita suka gila2an bareng, kemana2 berdua, pokoknya serba BERDUA. hmm FILM TWILIGHT! yap! itu film favorite gue sama puti. semua kata2 di film itu gue hafal bgt sama puti. dulu kita tergila-gila bgt sama twilight hahahaha sampe sekarang juga sih sebenernya :p lagu supermassive blackhole, itu jg lagu favorite gue sama puti. karna lagu itu soundtrack film twilight, kita jd suka  lagu itu deeeh huehehehehe. 

look at this pict! omg.... our hair bahaha lol. rambut puti masih pendek. apalagi gue, aneh gajelas bentuk apaan itu astaga -___-

itu foto pas kls 6. kalo gasalah itu di rumah shaila pas gue, puti, osti, sama shaila lagi latihan dance buat acara perpisahan sekolah. but but but..... dancenya GAGAL. padahal kita udh susah payah bikin gerakan tp akhirnya malah gagal kyk gitu x_x

oay back to story~
gue suka main di rumah puti sampe sore. rumah dia gak jauh dari sekolah. hmm cuma beberapa meter. & sampe akhirnya gue selalu dimarahin kl pulang ke rumahnya telat. dulu gue pernah pulang abis maghriban gitu grgr ujan deres gak berenti2. sampe2 gue pulang naik ojek. alhasil... pas sampe rumah gue basah semua. gatau knp gue suka aja main di rumah dia. mamanya deket bgt sama gue uhmm yea same like me, dia jg dkt bgt sama nyokap gue. pokoknya udh kyk keluarga sendiri deh.

but now, semenjak kls 8 sampe sekarang gue gapernah ketemu dia lagi. gak lost contact sih cuma gapernah ketemu aja AAAA I MISS U PUUUT :"""( wkt masih kls 7 kita masih sempet ketemu, masih sempet jalan bareng jg, tp skrg? omg i can't describe how i feel when i miss u a lot like this.

nginget dulu pas kita masih 1 sekolah aaa miss u bgt!!! tapi walaupun sekarang gue jauh dari lo, gapernah selalu ada buat lo, but i love u so much put. and u know what? i never ever forget u :"D cepet ketemu ya kitaaaa. mau cerita2 lagi, mau gila2an lagi, mau semuanya sama lo lagi. LAVYAAA!

much love, kisses, & big hug,

Alfi Sakinah